In Form 2, I had a crushed with one of my brother's friend. He noticed me because he couldn't resist any girls who has a crush on him even if it was cow wearing a wig!!. I wrote his name on my school desk and was confronted by the seniors because one of them has a crushed on him too. So we had a small war with notes flying around about this guy and after a while, I realised that he was just using me. It felt terrible at first but I got over it.
In Form 5, I fell in love with this guy from a rival school. He was about two years older and had mix parentage. He never notice me...until one day I couldn't have made it more obvious....I was so surprised to see him at the local F&B outlet that I spilled the coffee on Anna's school uniform and he saw the whole incident of me being clumsy. Worst part was we had an exam that afternoon and Anna smelled of coffee!!! She was given the odd look by the examiner...I got a break with this guy after the exam. He agree to go out with me and we had a great time. He was a funny person but I realised that we don't have the same vision at that time. Months later I got an offer to do a matriculation at a local university so off I went and that was the last time i heard from him. I did try to look for him when I came home during our semester break but I guess it was never meant to be...
After the SPM exam was over, we had a party arranged by a schoolmate. We had a great time and late as it was, we managed to go home safely. In the next few months Anna got a job at a stationary shop while me, I stayed at home because no one wants to hire me. But it didn't take long for us to know our SPM result's , so the next few months I was busy filling up UPU form. The fact that my sister and her family was away on the Malaysian Cruise didn't help. So I had to do everything on my own including dragging my mum to the old Yayasan Building next to RTM to take an oath as she didn't have a birth certificate. I even type the oath letter myself. I had to go to and fro between different department to get things done and I was only 17 then but as usual I grew up overnite. I believe that if you want something so badly, you just have to be smart and work hard on it and leave the rest to Jesus...
By June that year, Anna was leaving for KL for the A-level and I didn't get any reply from UPU. I was devastated because my next option was to apply for Form 6 in a neighbouring school. That option would be difficult because I didn't obtain credit for the bahasa malaysia subject. I knew who was the headmaster of the neighbouring school so I decided to give him a call. That was the most humiliating conversation i ever had with a person whom I look up to. I ask for his favour to help me enter Form 6 in his school and his reply was that with the SPM results I have, I will not be able to enter any school let alone any university! That was his exact words! So I politely told him it is okay if he doesn't want to assist me and said goodbye. That nite I cried myself to sleep and it felt like my whole world has crushed. But Jesus did not abandon me...exactly a week before the end of June that year, I received a reply from UPU - UITM offering me a Diploma in Civil Engineering. A few days later I received another UPU letter, this time from University Malaya offering me to do Science Matriculation. I was so happy and my sister advise me to take up the offer from UM. I only had a week to prepare my medical report as well as other documentation ready and by the end of the week I was flying alone to KL for the orientation week....
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